Depression is one of the most common psychological conditions being seen among people of every age.
Some are clinically depressed while others are philosophically depressed. However, they all share similar kind of feelings and emotional imbalance. In context to such situations, I have written something for all those who have felt a tiny bit of something like this once in their life.
“my side of the story”
I Feel dark inside
Even in a room full of light.
Sometimes a sudden spark
During the darkest hour of the night
And, then it’s all black and white,
I feel I am locked,
In my own body
In my own brain.
I look at myself in the mirror
and I feel like a stranger.
I am Trying to find answers
Why am I so
Unrelated to my own soul?
What could have pushed me through
To feel incomplete?
I cannot hear a sound In a crowded place
But, I feel the noise in a silent empty street.
I walk on a road
But, I can’t feel my feet.
I am struggling to have an understanding of
What has happened to me?
Because I recall, I wasn’t feeling the same
A few years ago.
Now, I have already started blurring about
Who I use to be
With no further desire to know.
I am growing old and sick
I am getting tired of
every passing day.
and I wish to just stop.
like a Black and white story
With dark and twisty words.
I wish I could write it better,
showcased with colored vignette,
Bright and contrasting lights
a beautiful cover page
Filling the empty dark sides.
Something not sad and gloomy
A character, not dull or depressed
a tale which makes a history
Expressing my side of the story in a little different way.
P.S: Take help, talk to somebody, but do not ignore psychological illness. Reach out to somebody before it gets worse. Because you don’t have to be alone, you don’t have to deal with it alone. You deserve better!
PC: google images.